生命中有很多的事情都不在我们掌控之中。你不难发现身边的朋友少时抱着远的的理想，现在却为了生活不得委曲求全。
理想。人因梦想而伟大。人最渴望的就是找到一份自己理想的工作，打造一个完美的事业。
而往往这些宏观的海市蜃楼，在被现实炮火的摧残下，渐渐化为灰烬。人类在这个时代，不得为了混一口饭吃而把理想暂时搁下，去追寻所谓能“赚吃”的门路。
日复一日，当那股年轻气盛的锐气也被驯服了，他们成为了温室的小花，选择在最“安全”的环境中寻求成长。
人生还有几个20年。。。我对自己说：非得趁年轻又单身去享受生活，体验人生。但仔细坐下来思考时，那股勇气却不知怎么了被“现实”代替了。
我还要坚持我精算师的理想吗？我能坚持吗？我是否适合去坚持吗？我是否太固执了还是我太没原则？坚持与固执往往只是一线之差。。。
该放手了。。。越坚持只会越束缚自己
朋友。有人说：“出外靠朋友”，又有人说：“见色忘友”。朋友在我生命中影响着我，联系着我，热闹着我，精彩着我。
《人生难得相知心》，《酒逢知己千杯少》，《两肋插刀》，《上到山下油锅》，《赴汤蹈火，在错不辞》。。。从古代到现今，句句都表达兄弟之间坚贞不移的情感。
伤感的事，这一切只停留在一个“色”之前。人总得成家立业。有了伴，生活的天平秤就倾向男女朋友的那一方。
我还要坚持吗？还是我对朋友的期望太高？或是我对朋友不够好？要更体谅他？
该放手了。。。越坚持只会越让你的朋友离你越远。
放手是一种成全，不是泄气
放手让我得到解脱，不是变得懦弱
放手使我看到前方更远更美的东西，不是耿耿于怀过往的追忆
放手让我学会下一刻的珍惜。
我现在很想坚持但却又已经放手了。。。
have u ever think of the next second is ur death time?
Recently, i got received some news about my friend's relative death...is was quite shocked when the people was healthy in front of u and the next moment he or she is in Heaven d...
What if i die then... Will i have any regret...Will i have any preparation to meet our Heavenly Father?...That's the question i being ask to myself recently...
We don't know our days of life in this earth, but we can appreciate each second in our present moment... Live every second like it is ur last second...
What if u die the next second?
过了一个很忙碌的圣诞节，难得母亲终于舍得卸下工作到新加坡玩。。。我这个做儿子的怎么能不奉陪。。。只可惜妹妹不能同行。。。再加上途中面临很大的抉择，这次的旅行不一样！
the day after christmas, i woke up early ard 8am... My aunt , my mom and i were going to Singapore to visit my second aunt cum travelling... Is been 8 years long for my mom since she went Singapore with my dad for his treatment... Finally my mom new passport have a cop for the 300 fees...haha...
At first we plan to have a bus to go JB...but the earliest bus is 11am... and it seemed too late for us... so w decided to take a taxi for 120 to reach there... Luckily i been to Singapore before... My aunt and my mom jz counted on me to arrange everything... And this time we have the chance to visit our country new-built custom... Wah is very nice and high class and high tech olso... To whom never been there , i kindly invite u for a Singapore trip during you holiday meanwhile visiting New Custom... Is my first time and all using fingerprints... We spent a lot of time traveling across the JB-Singapore bridge... Serious traffic jam... And we olso spent alot of time queuing at the Singapore custom to get through....
Finally we reached Toa Payoh MRT station sound and safe ard 2pm... Having a fish soup noodles as our lunch, we straight away heading to HortPark.. A new botanical garden with alot of herbs surround and wonderful flowers being grown in a well-equipped Glassroom... Is was a hot afternoon and we really witness the wonder of the technology to grow some cold-weather plants in this tropical island...
After that, we went to Sentosa... I been there with my fren before... this time i just went for a SkyTower ride and watching Song of the Sea(musical fountain) which impressed all of us very much...Is quite fun to spend one-day in Sentosa island...I hope i can come next time... Unexplainable joy and excitement we experienced here... Undescribeable beauty of nature here...
We went to St.Andrew Catheral Church... Esplanade... Merlion... Chinatown... Orchard Road... Having a luxurious lunch and dinner on my uncle's treat...
and we backed today....
All thing back to normal... and i going to have class tomorrow...
Bye bye my last school holiday... Bye bye christmas... bye bye singapore....bye bye 2008
Looking forward to the New semester and new begining of life in 2009
It was a wonderful and busiest christmas day for me...early in the morning, after having a tired silent night service at my church, i have to drag myself out of a snoring sleep ard 7.30am... Wah is tortured man but wat can i do? I am now a new president of music ministry... All i have done should be an example to others... Responsibility and Pressure jz one line apart each other...
The day was groomed and drizzling in the morning... Is freezing on the motor ride to my church... Luckily this morning most of the choir members were seemed to be serious than before... be in the church before 8am...is a great christmas gift for me haha... Because we have to start the choir practice at that time...
The service were going well but very long... we start at 9am and finish ard 12pm... then we go to have a buffet lunch at a restaurant... all of the church members are invited... this was an unforgetable christmas i ever have... U knw why? Because i dun enjoy anything prepared at all... Haha sound curious right ? Let me explain to u... Before the lunch started, the youth were told to help to serve the diners... If not, the food will be not enough for 200++ people in the restaurant... ( I wish that Jesus here so to hope for a five breads and two fish miracle amongst us...) Right after the Rev's saying grace, the people started to move...u can hear like a thunder roar... that was the chairs' moving sound... U can imagine all the hungry people finally get their hunger fulfilled haha.... It was in a messy at first... All come towards the food without order... They are like "robbing" the food... And they try to get as many as they could without consider other's feeling... Wah Yong Peng people behaviors... haha... all are shown here... We all try to make the people in queue and try to snatch back our serving spoons from them...haha!!! The youth ended up eating nothing but some vegetables and fruits... Luckily the restaurant got prepare extra fried noodle and mee hoon for us... phew... = =!!
That was the 'closing ceremony' for our Christmas event... I spent all the afternoon sleeping and recharging back my energy... haha... at night we have praise and worship practice... and i be the pianist...
That was my christmas day... All come so fast, all end so fast...Christmas isn't christmas if u dun appreciate the meaning inside... Jz like the eating behaviour of our church members... Lost of christmas meaning of being sharing and considerate...
Christmas isn't christmas... Is tired for me... Busy preparing the presentation and the practice... When can we stop awhile and think of what God want us to do in every christmas... I have lost the appreciation of the Christmas meaning... Jesus... His birth.. His savior... His sacrifce... and God's mercy...
What christmas means to you?
Today we finished our caroling... Two days busy singing and leading... is been a hard time for the participants to sing 20++ houses in one night... A lot of us has already spoiled their voices and fell sick... Now jz pray to God that everything will be alright until Christmas day...
Thanks God for the leading and guiding in the caroling... although there is still complaints about our caroling team's behavior for being not serious in singing and praying, but today everything seems fine and good... It is late than previous night but due to God grace, we ended at a good time... and of course have a lucky draw after the caroling at church... haha... i am not so lucky to get one though...
Today is a result releasing day... well is great to see my result... it is not consider a very excellent result... but it is stil beyond my expectation... God's miracle and arrangement is always out of what we think... Is a christmas gift for me... I am very happy... U wan to knw my result ... haha... what i can tell is i stil remain my 1st class so far ( if is above 3.70)... but anyway i should be satisfied on what God give me...Amen...
Tomorrow is a busiest day... everything getting so excited to Christmas...
Joy to the world The Lord is Come
Let earth receive Her king...
Let every HEart prepare Him room
And heaven nature sing
All thing shall bow down to HIM
Hallelujah... Praise the Savior King... for His grace and mercy to die for us...
Happy Silent Night
tonight is caroling day... everything seemed to get occupied when come to Christmas...
Caroling is an activities when Christians spread the good news of the birth of Jesus Christ in Bethlehem... The first caroling is the time when the angels announce the birth of Jesus Christ to the shepherd and the poor 2000++ years ago...
1st day caroling... well not so noisy as before... at 1st, everyone seems to be so quiet and strange becuz no jokers inside... Which means no talented ppl can be the 搞气氛 role... So jz like a normal caroling team... sing and pray when go to family by family... but gradually... we got some ppl that play the role... actually jz depend on ur dare and also ur talent to act or say sumthing that can make ppl laugh and get other's 共鸣的话题或举动... at least the 气氛not so weird...
i am not the one... i wish to be the one that everybody comes to play with u make joke with u... when go outing, u are the one ppl think that when u ard they won't feel boring... when go travelling, ppl love to get ard with u and make joke and fun with u... i wish but i am not... mayb since child, i was a person that everyone admire on my excellence and talent... so not so many person getting near to me for they feel pressure or mayb they feel hard to get along with those intelligent ppl... even though i tried to be gossiping making sumthing funny and try to teasing other ppl but in church i am still a very intelligent ppl or an topic-ender... so far what i can see from myself...
tonite is also the nite when i confirmed to be the president of the music ministry... feel pressure pressure and pressure... i know myself... i jz cun bear to ask other to help... i afraid i become an irresponsible person at last... which i dun wish to happen... when i get sum position that is very important and high, i will get a lot of tension and i need to discipline myself a lot more... Mayb god wan to train me at this moment... i hope i can persistent to the end... even not a very performing but jz maintain and be responsible to what i should do... Is a new begining for me... new challenge for me... i got other burden at my daddy's church there... i hope i can handle both cuz i hope to help both
Bless me god so that i can bless more ppl
Teach me to give more than ask more
Make me learn to be resposible and obey to what u ask me to do...
Thank you Lord for all is ur wisdom and arrangement...
Good nite to all...until the next time
today is 冬至。。。it symbolize an one-year-growth for a children in Chinese custom...
Normally we eat 汤圆，a small "flour" ball with the mixture of peanuts powder and sugar...some ball got 馅 inside...
A growth...times flying...21st year of mine quickly flown away...Is been a normal 21st year with a lot of separation with friends... some weddings at the end of year... some change in my buddy group ... and of course a lot of regrets inside
Today is my church music ministry AGM ... a new badge of the committees is selected... with a lot of surprises and also a lot of anticipations... i also one of the committee members... so far i haven known what post i will be in... i been a secretary before... a choir leader and last year i was a evangelism trip person-in-charge... it has been quite a long time i was honorly selected to serve in music ministry since the revival of this ministry... it been a meaningful memory in my life to work with the commitee to serve our Lord... the togetherness... the support... the joy... and all the thing we succeed in the previous year... i never been a cheerful and thoughtful person without the involvement in this commitee... from them i learnt a lot... thanks God!!!
It is not easy to be a leader in this commitee... cuz you need to take care of a lot of small group like Prasie and Worship team, Choir, Tambourine, and etc...So far we have three blessed ppl been in this position... and they have done a great job in each stage of their leading...
Today, thanks to to God grace i got the most numbers of election in choosing the 7 commitee members with 27 out of 29 tickets i get... is a joy and also a pressure to me...when we plan to choose the leader from these 7 members, although we haven count the ticket properly but i was told that i was the most number of ticket in electing the chairperson of this commitee...
Wahl！！！Qoah！！！
Is that an honor or is that a pressure... Deep in my heart i feel i wan to grab this...but i knew myself.. i am an lazy and impersistent person... i can be a tiger in the beginning and turn out be a snake at the end.... 2009 years is a twisted year for me becuz i have to undergo a two stage of life from student to a worker which means i will be graduating in May 2009...Can i afford this position or is jz a feeling or winning to get the position... U know why...cuz when i was told that there are different plan in choosing the chairperson which means that the 7 commitee member are not chosen to be... but with another from the 3 person which has taken the position before...
Well i sdmit a little disappointment... but nw what i foresee is that will i be a person consistent to the end when i was given a so important and highly position... i could say i am not... chinese saying, u dun have enough size of head then dun wear too high hat... i am sure i dun have the size although my head look big... well, is still an questionmark until now...i hope what comes to the end is all the God mercy and grace to use me as His servant... i hope if i get it i can persistent in it....
today is olso a regretness time for me...i did sumthing wrong to God... i need to confense in Christ...but i knew is not the 1st time... Dear God, i'm sorry... forgive me although i not enough will to overcome my temptation... i;m sorry... i hope my apology is not a cliche to You... i jz dun knw how to do... Teach me lord... Forgive me....
24 is the day of releasing result... Pray God for His blessing...
Thats all for today...
Thank you and goodnite....
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