真《诚》相见，坦《诚》相对

有些东西你越坚持，你越要学习放手

2009-10-29T10:27:00.000-07:00

生命中有很多的事情都不在我们掌控之中。你不难发现身边的朋友少时抱着远的的理想，现在却为了生活不得委曲求全。

理想。人因梦想而伟大。人最渴望的就是找到一份自己理想的工作，打造一个完美的事业。
而往往这些宏观的海市蜃楼，在被现实炮火的摧残下，渐渐化为灰烬。人类在这个时代，不得为了混一口饭吃而把理想暂时搁下，去追寻所谓能“赚吃”的门路。
日复一日，当那股年轻气盛的锐气也被驯服了，他们成为了温室的小花，选择在最“安全”的环境中寻求成长。
人生还有几个20年。。。我对自己说：非得趁年轻又单身去享受生活，体验人生。但仔细坐下来思考时，那股勇气却不知怎么了被“现实”代替了。
我还要坚持我精算师的理想吗？我能坚持吗？我是否适合去坚持吗？我是否太固执了还是我太没原则？坚持与固执往往只是一线之差。。。
该放手了。。。越坚持只会越束缚自己

朋友。有人说：“出外靠朋友”，又有人说：“见色忘友”。朋友在我生命中影响着我，联系着我，热闹着我，精彩着我。
《人生难得相知心》，《酒逢知己千杯少》，《两肋插刀》，《上到山下油锅》，《赴汤蹈火，在错不辞》。。。从古代到现今，句句都表达兄弟之间坚贞不移的情感。
伤感的事，这一切只停留在一个“色”之前。人总得成家立业。有了伴，生活的天平秤就倾向男女朋友的那一方。
我还要坚持吗？还是我对朋友的期望太高？或是我对朋友不够好？要更体谅他？
该放手了。。。越坚持只会越让你的朋友离你越远。

放手是一种成全，不是泄气
放手让我得到解脱，不是变得懦弱
放手使我看到前方更远更美的东西，不是耿耿于怀过往的追忆

放手让我学会下一刻的珍惜。

我现在很想坚持但却又已经放手了。。。

Live...Die

2009-01-06T08:34:00.000-08:00

have u ever think of the next second is ur death time?

Recently, i got received some news about my friend's relative death...is was quite shocked when the people was healthy in front of u and the next moment he or she is in Heaven d...

What if i die then... Will i have any regret...Will i have any preparation to meet our Heavenly Father?...That's the question i being ask to myself recently...

We don't know our days of life in this earth, but we can appreciate each second in our present moment... Live every second like it is ur last second...

What if u die the next second?

SINGAPORE TRIP

2008-12-28T04:04:00.000-08:00

过了一个很忙碌的圣诞节，难得母亲终于舍得卸下工作到新加坡玩。。。我这个做儿子的怎么能不奉陪。。。只可惜妹妹不能同行。。。再加上途中面临很大的抉择，这次的旅行不一样！

the day after christmas, i woke up early ard 8am... My aunt , my mom and i were going to Singapore to visit my second aunt cum travelling... Is been 8 years long for my mom since she went Singapore with my dad for his treatment... Finally my mom new passport have a cop for the 300 fees...haha...

At first we plan to have a bus to go JB...but the earliest bus is 11am... and it seemed too late for us... so w decided to take a taxi for 120 to reach there... Luckily i been to Singapore before... My aunt and my mom jz counted on me to arrange everything... And this time we have the chance to visit our country new-built custom... Wah is very nice and high class and high tech olso... To whom never been there , i kindly invite u for a Singapore trip during you holiday meanwhile visiting New Custom... Is my first time and all using fingerprints... We spent a lot of time traveling across the JB-Singapore bridge... Serious traffic jam... And we olso spent alot of time queuing at the Singapore custom to get through....

Finally we reached Toa Payoh MRT station sound and safe ard 2pm... Having a fish soup noodles as our lunch, we straight away heading to HortPark.. A new botanical garden with alot of herbs surround and wonderful flowers being grown in a well-equipped Glassroom... Is was a hot afternoon and we really witness the wonder of the technology to grow some cold-weather plants in this tropical island...

After that, we went to Sentosa... I been there with my fren before... this time i just went for a SkyTower ride and watching Song of the Sea(musical fountain) which impressed all of us very much...Is quite fun to spend one-day in Sentosa island...I hope i can come next time... Unexplainable joy and excitement we experienced here... Undescribeable beauty of nature here...

We went to St.Andrew Catheral Church... Esplanade... Merlion... Chinatown... Orchard Road... Having a luxurious lunch and dinner on my uncle's treat...

and we backed today....

All thing back to normal... and i going to have class tomorrow...

Bye bye my last school holiday... Bye bye christmas... bye bye singapore....bye bye 2008

Looking forward to the New semester and new begining of life in 2009

Christmas isn't Christmas

2008-12-28T03:30:00.000-08:00

It was a wonderful and busiest christmas day for me...early in the morning, after having a tired silent night service at my church, i have to drag myself out of a snoring sleep ard 7.30am... Wah is tortured man but wat can i do? I am now a new president of music ministry... All i have done should be an example to others... Responsibility and Pressure jz one line apart each other...

The day was groomed and drizzling in the morning... Is freezing on the motor ride to my church... Luckily this morning most of the choir members were seemed to be serious than before... be in the church before 8am...is a great christmas gift for me haha... Because we have to start the choir practice at that time...

The service were going well but very long... we start at 9am and finish ard 12pm... then we go to have a buffet lunch at a restaurant... all of the church members are invited... this was an unforgetable christmas i ever have... U knw why? Because i dun enjoy anything prepared at all... Haha sound curious right ? Let me explain to u... Before the lunch started, the youth were told to help to serve the diners... If not, the food will be not enough for 200++ people in the restaurant... ( I wish that Jesus here so to hope for a five breads and two fish miracle amongst us...) Right after the Rev's saying grace, the people started to move...u can hear like a thunder roar... that was the chairs' moving sound... U can imagine all the hungry people finally get their hunger fulfilled haha.... It was in a messy at first... All come towards the food without order... They are like "robbing" the food... And they try to get as many as they could without consider other's feeling... Wah Yong Peng people behaviors... haha... all are shown here... We all try to make the people in queue and try to snatch back our serving spoons from them...haha!!! The youth ended up eating nothing but some vegetables and fruits... Luckily the restaurant got prepare extra fried noodle and mee hoon for us... phew... = =!!

That was the 'closing ceremony' for our Christmas event... I spent all the afternoon sleeping and recharging back my energy... haha... at night we have praise and worship practice... and i be the pianist...

That was my christmas day... All come so fast, all end so fast...Christmas isn't christmas if u dun appreciate the meaning inside... Jz like the eating behaviour of our church members... Lost of christmas meaning of being sharing and considerate...

Christmas isn't christmas... Is tired for me... Busy preparing the presentation and the practice... When can we stop awhile and think of what God want us to do in every christmas... I have lost the appreciation of the Christmas meaning... Jesus... His birth.. His savior... His sacrifce... and God's mercy...

What christmas means to you?

Thanks God for everything

2008-12-23T10:15:00.000-08:00

Today we finished our caroling... Two days busy singing and leading... is been a hard time for the participants to sing 20++ houses in one night... A lot of us has already spoiled their voices and fell sick... Now jz pray to God that everything will be alright until Christmas day...

Thanks God for the leading and guiding in the caroling... although there is still complaints about our caroling team's behavior for being not serious in singing and praying, but today everything seems fine and good... It is late than previous night but due to God grace, we ended at a good time... and of course have a lucky draw after the caroling at church... haha... i am not so lucky to get one though...

Today is a result releasing day... well is great to see my result... it is not consider a very excellent result... but it is stil beyond my expectation... God's miracle and arrangement is always out of what we think... Is a christmas gift for me... I am very happy... U wan to knw my result ... haha... what i can tell is i stil remain my 1st class so far ( if is above 3.70)... but anyway i should be satisfied on what God give me...Amen...

Tomorrow is a busiest day... everything getting so excited to Christmas...

Joy to the world The Lord is Come
Let earth receive Her king...
Let every HEart prepare Him room
And heaven nature sing
All thing shall bow down to HIM

Hallelujah... Praise the Savior King... for His grace and mercy to die for us...

Happy Silent Night

Carolling

2008-12-22T09:23:00.000-08:00

tonight is caroling day... everything seemed to get occupied when come to Christmas...

Caroling is an activities when Christians spread the good news of the birth of Jesus Christ in Bethlehem... The first caroling is the time when the angels announce the birth of Jesus Christ to the shepherd and the poor 2000++ years ago...

1st day caroling... well not so noisy as before... at 1st, everyone seems to be so quiet and strange becuz no jokers inside... Which means no talented ppl can be the 搞气氛 role... So jz like a normal caroling team... sing and pray when go to family by family... but gradually... we got some ppl that play the role... actually jz depend on ur dare and also ur talent to act or say sumthing that can make ppl laugh and get other's 共鸣的话题或举动... at least the 气氛not so weird...

i am not the one... i wish to be the one that everybody comes to play with u make joke with u... when go outing, u are the one ppl think that when u ard they won't feel boring... when go travelling, ppl love to get ard with u and make joke and fun with u... i wish but i am not... mayb since child, i was a person that everyone admire on my excellence and talent... so not so many person getting near to me for they feel pressure or mayb they feel hard to get along with those intelligent ppl... even though i tried to be gossiping making sumthing funny and try to teasing other ppl but in church i am still a very intelligent ppl or an topic-ender... so far what i can see from myself...

tonite is also the nite when i confirmed to be the president of the music ministry... feel pressure pressure and pressure... i know myself... i jz cun bear to ask other to help... i afraid i become an irresponsible person at last... which i dun wish to happen... when i get sum position that is very important and high, i will get a lot of tension and i need to discipline myself a lot more... Mayb god wan to train me at this moment... i hope i can persistent to the end... even not a very performing but jz maintain and be responsible to what i should do... Is a new begining for me... new challenge for me... i got other burden at my daddy's church there... i hope i can handle both cuz i hope to help both

Bless me god so that i can bless more ppl
Teach me to give more than ask more
Make me learn to be resposible and obey to what u ask me to do...

Thank you Lord for all is ur wisdom and arrangement...

Good nite to all...until the next time

冬至与改选

2008-12-21T07:17:00.000-08:00

today is 冬至。。。it symbolize an one-year-growth for a children in Chinese custom...
Normally we eat 汤圆，a small "flour" ball with the mixture of peanuts powder and sugar...some ball got 馅 inside...

A growth...times flying...21st year of mine quickly flown away...Is been a normal 21st year with a lot of separation with friends... some weddings at the end of year... some change in my buddy group ... and of course a lot of regrets inside

Today is my church music ministry AGM ... a new badge of the committees is selected... with a lot of surprises and also a lot of anticipations... i also one of the committee members... so far i haven known what post i will be in... i been a secretary before... a choir leader and last year i was a evangelism trip person-in-charge... it has been quite a long time i was honorly selected to serve in music ministry since the revival of this ministry... it been a meaningful memory in my life to work with the commitee to serve our Lord... the togetherness... the support... the joy... and all the thing we succeed in the previous year... i never been a cheerful and thoughtful person without the involvement in this commitee... from them i learnt a lot... thanks God!!!

It is not easy to be a leader in this commitee... cuz you need to take care of a lot of small group like Prasie and Worship team, Choir, Tambourine, and etc...So far we have three blessed ppl been in this position... and they have done a great job in each stage of their leading...

Today, thanks to to God grace i got the most numbers of election in choosing the 7 commitee members with 27 out of 29 tickets i get... is a joy and also a pressure to me...when we plan to choose the leader from these 7 members, although we haven count the ticket properly but i was told that i was the most number of ticket in electing the chairperson of this commitee...

Wahl！！！Qoah！！！

Is that an honor or is that a pressure... Deep in my heart i feel i wan to grab this...but i knew myself.. i am an lazy and impersistent person... i can be a tiger in the beginning and turn out be a snake at the end.... 2009 years is a twisted year for me becuz i have to undergo a two stage of life from student to a worker which means i will be graduating in May 2009...Can i afford this position or is jz a feeling or winning to get the position... U know why...cuz when i was told that there are different plan in choosing the chairperson which means that the 7 commitee member are not chosen to be... but with another from the 3 person which has taken the position before...

Well i sdmit a little disappointment... but nw what i foresee is that will i be a person consistent to the end when i was given a so important and highly position... i could say i am not... chinese saying, u dun have enough size of head then dun wear too high hat... i am sure i dun have the size although my head look big... well, is still an questionmark until now...i hope what comes to the end is all the God mercy and grace to use me as His servant... i hope if i get it i can persistent in it....

today is olso a regretness time for me...i did sumthing wrong to God... i need to confense in Christ...but i knew is not the 1st time... Dear God, i'm sorry... forgive me although i not enough will to overcome my temptation... i;m sorry... i hope my apology is not a cliche to You... i jz dun knw how to do... Teach me lord... Forgive me....

24 is the day of releasing result... Pray God for His blessing...

Thats all for today...

Thank you and goodnite....

Secret

2008-12-20T08:46:00.000-08:00

normally i was thinking who am i doing in this world?

Is that really me a person worth to be exist in this world...Is that i worth to be a God's son...i am not actually who i am in what others see...i have sumthing inside...deep inside...a secret that only i knew what i am going on...i hope the secret din exist in me...i jz want to be a normal person...without any ability...without any intelligence...without any talent...without any gifts from God...

If i can subsitute the secret with all my strength i willing to do so...really!!

Sumtime i jz talk to myself inside...two voices fighting and quarrelling...but always the bad side wins...i tired of hearing this struggle...Is hard...is tortured...my soul and my mind...sumtime i jz thinking of commit suicide becuz i feel hard to fall between righteousness and desires...

If i can subsitute the voices with all my life i willing to do so...really!

I jz want to ask God...Why i feel like this...Why i act like this...Why i become so weak in front of the temptation...Why i become very cunning when i want to satisfy my desires...Why? Why? Why?....Why God want to put the secret in me...i had been trying for so many years since i knew it is wrong...but i jz couldn't to get rid of it...it jz come in nature...come as an instinct...come in gens
Is tat really an instinct...the world gives me a "No"...But why i jz cun stop myself from thinking of that...why i cun make myself be a right person...for so many years, i was controlled by the secret day by day...year to year

i was tired...very tired...i was hopeless...despair...disappointed...useless...jerk...hypocrite...

will i get a treatment, God?
will i get a punishment for what i have done, God?
will i get a repay for my irresponsible of controlling myself God?

God i need ur help
To be normal
To be good
To be ur son...

i know u r the only one can help
i need to know ur way in me
i need to know the way of salvation in my secret...
i hope for a revival...a recovery... a testimony... and Your way in me

Teach me Lord
Guide me Lord
Supervise me Lord
Rod me Lord
whenever U can to wake me up

Thank You....!!

好感动！！

2008-10-23T19:49:00.000-07:00

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*************** 一位勇敢的小女孩 **********************

19/10/2008（日），一个年仅12岁的小女孩，她的左手第四和第五根手指在意外中被剪断了。

这件事发生在傍晚5点多，当时的你可能正在上网，可能正在睡午觉，可能正在看着电视节目，可能正在篮球场上打篮球，可能正在往返的路途中。。。。这一位小妹妹却经历了让人听起来都感到痛的意外。

我收到这项消息时已经是晚上9点多了。当时，这位小女孩正在医院当中，等待着医生为她诊治，她还不清楚两根手指是否能够被接回去，陪伴她的妈妈心理焦急，在家等待消息的婆婆为着孙女儿心疼，她的姐妹们为着她流泪难过。。。我的脑海里不断浮现着这些亲人的各样表情。我呢，我能够为他们做些什么？感谢神！让我有机会在这个家庭发生这样的意外的时候，载着小女孩的婆婆、姐妹和弟弟到医院去看望小女孩。

路途中，我一面开着车子，一面保持沉默，我也不知道该说些什么安慰的话。平时开着车子的我一定要一些音乐来调剂，可当时我却没有。车上不断响起的是电话的铃声，小女孩的姐姐和振球忙着向大家报告小女孩的消息，消息很快的传开，大家都为着小女孩祷告。小女孩的婆婆就坐在我的身旁，再三提醒着我小心开车，不用赶。这位婆婆其实心里面是焦急难过的，病魔曾经夺去了她心爱的儿子，她是多么的期望她的孙儿能够健健康康，平平安安，可是意外还是发生了。婆婆只是在想，手指还能接回去吗？坐在后座的振球安慰着她，叫她一定要坚强，好好照顾自己，因为孙女儿们还需要她来照顾。上帝还要使用小女孩的，不会就这样让她失去两个小指头。我没有勇气告诉车上所有的人一起来开声为着小女孩祷告，只能在心里面不断的默默呼求阿爸天父怜悯和医治这个家庭。

车子来到了医院，大家都赶紧下车去看看小女孩的情况。我把车子停放后，往紧急室的方向走去，在紧急室的外面停放着一辆救伤车。没多久，就看见了和我同行的人，还有小女孩坐在轮椅上，被推到了救伤车旁。没来得及和小女孩说话，小女孩就上了救伤车，并躺在病床上。

小女孩必须赶紧被送到Selayang医院接受手术，把手指头接回。一位教会的弟兄，就是载着小女孩和她的妈妈到一家又一家医院求救的得裘，告诉我医生也没有把握，只说他们会尝试，第五根手指（尾指）应该可以被接回去，可是第四根手指（无名指）就很难说了，成功率只有十巴仙。当时，我的心里面一阵阵的心痛。趁着小女孩的妈妈在办着手续时，我走到了救伤车旁，对小女孩说了一句话：阿雯，你不要害怕，我们会为你祷告的。小女孩很平静的点了点头，眼眶里泛着泪光。她的平静，是出乎我意料之外的，我以为见到小女孩时会是看到一个哭闹喊痛的她，可是她没有。我实在难以置信，事后还是再次询问了她的两位姐姐。的确，她没有哭。即使是发生意外的那一刻，她都没有哭。她只是问了她的妈妈一句话：我还可以跳铃鼓吗。。。

救伤车开走了，小女孩被送到Selayang医院去，面对历时六个小时的手术。。。

小女孩目前还在医院观察中，好些在吉隆坡的弟兄姐妹都去医院探望慰问。我要谢谢他们的爱心。到医院探望小女孩的人告诉我，他们都为小女孩的坚强感到惊讶。她都没有哭，只是说想念妈妈。我为着这个小女孩感到骄傲，虽然她只有12岁，可是她在经历意外时所表现出来的坚强和勇敢是我们很多比她年长的人所不及的。我想，小女孩的坚强是因为她不想大家为她担心，她不想她的妈妈和婆婆难过。这个懂事的孩子，怎不叫人怜惜她呢？！

雯慧，谢谢你这么坚强！谢谢你这么勇敢。我们爱你！耶稣也爱你！

********** 雯慧，加油，我们大家向你看齐！！*******************

事事难以预料。。。难道真的是那么玄？

2008-10-08T10:23:00.000-07:00

10月8日晚上十一时雨天

今天可说是大家最忙的日子。。。falsafah 长达50页手写的assingment 今天就是deadline。。。
这几天大家为了这个功课，抄的抄，写的写，手麻的麻，本想好好在今晚慰劳自己，顺便迎接一位朋友的生日，没想到。。。

after falsafah 后，大家总算松了一口气，把assignment 交上了，开始想着要怎么为我们的小妹妹庆生，顺便慰劳自己的肚子。。。大伙儿参谋了几许，终于决定要到Serdang 的一间以卖各式各类roti plata 著名的小食店，大吃一餐。。。就这样，我们三三两两坐着JW,SC,LT的车，由KC（摩多）为首，一大票QA的同学带着兴奋的心情浩浩荡荡前往目的地。。。

就在途中，正当大家都有说有笑时，摆在前头的KC紧急刹车，跟着ＪＷ也连忙进踏着刹车器。。。当时坐在车内的我听到"砰“地一声，SC的车直接撞上来。。。还以为事情就这样结束。。。不到半秒钟，车身的右侧传来：吱吱的声响，很刺耳，看见LT的车就从我们的右手边插身而过，停在我们的前方。。。

大家的笑声顿时静了。。。仿佛时间就在这一秒停住了。。。

我拼命的开关双眼，希望眼前所发生的只是南柯一梦。。。

不知道何时我们的友族同胞那么样的热情，不约而同地停了下来帮忙，还叫了其他人来援助。。。才没多久，我们就被很多不认识的人包围着。。。那种感觉不是庆幸，而是怀疑。。。不知道他们居心何在。。。哈哈，真不知道是不是应怪我们的世道太不好，搞得大家人心惶惶。。。为了驱散他们，我们不断地告诉他们我们能解决，没想到他们还不肯罢休，真不知道他们是不是拖车公司请来的，专门找这样的门路赚点介绍费。。。哈哈

最可怜的还是我们坚强的三位女司机，当时我在想我们男生真的是。。。该怎么说呢？不是没用，也不是胆小。。。就是一种莫名的爱莫能助感！他们最怕的是和家人的坦白，一时间才从惊吓中苏醒，接着又要面对家人无形的压力，心里的难受也只能往肚里吞。。。或许他们不想再这么多人面前流泪，就算是快要崩溃，还是要强忍着在眼眶打滚的泪水，不要让他落下。。。

身为旁观者的我，唯一能做的就是在帮协助，希望有什么事能给以劝告还是帮忙想办法。。。

SC的家人也陆续的赶到。。。最后大家决定把车子送到jw 朋友的修车厂暂时搁放着。。。由于LT 的汽车情况急哦啊为严重，需要拖车的到车厂。。SC的汽车后车轮有些问题勉强还能行走，JW的情况也差不多一样。。。其他人也跟着SC家人的车回家。。。

回到房里，我第一个时间就想把这事件写下。。。

心里面一直咱绕着一个很玄的问题。。。难道这的是每个sem一次。。。
或许你肯能不大明白。。。还记得第一个sem 的时候，edmun在考试途中跌摩多，ks在打篮球时手的小尾指受伤，我再为sc庆生时扭伤脚，sc在和我们玩耍时跌伤头和脚。。。今天的意外难道就是延续之前的"每sem一次"...真的是这样吗？没人知道。。。或许是巧合。。。不过庆幸的是这次的意外没人受伤。。。暂时我们就缺少了代步工具，近期内也不能时常外出了。。。那些受害的司机们也得暂时要忍受禁关的日子。。。

希望明天会更好！！感谢主一切安好！

我 ---- 一个双鱼座的男人

2008-10-02T20:26:00.000-07:00

多情的双鱼座

双鱼座的男人多情是出了名的。女人们都说，多情的男人必定多恋。双鱼座的男人往往多情也多恋，他们致命的弱点便是太放纵自己的心意，常常是见一个爱一个，并且对每一段情都是真心付出，也能使每个女孩子都沈醉在他们的柔情蜜意中。多情的男人，无非是使自己时常陷入感情的漩涡之中。多情的男人爱风流，多情的男人总喜欢女孩子们围着他转，多情的男人对婚姻始终抱着不肯定的态度。其实，所谓「不肯定的态度」，就是不喜欢负责任。一旦热恋中的女士像他表示想结婚时，他会找出种种理由加以拒绝，甚至逃之夭夭。「结婚是爱情的坟墓」，多情的男人振振有辞。多情的双鱼座男人十分懂得如何讨取女孩子的欢心，更懂得用行动来表达爱意，在同女孩子打交道时，他最慷慨大方，最不吝惜花钱。他知道在什麽时候需要像女孩子送花，或者给女孩子送上一份生日礼物。然而，多情的男人天生就是个风流情种，多情的男人像一阵风－来去匆匆。不过，在希腊神话中，海王星是双鱼座的守护神，也许受海王星的支配，双鱼座的男人活泼开朗、温柔多情，甚至有些多愁善感；多情的双鱼座男人天生具有艺术家的气质。

爱幻想的双鱼座

如果你是个追求浪漫的女人，那么双鱼座的男人是不会让你失望的，清晨看日出，星光下划船，都可能是他采取的行动，他的温柔体贴和无比的想象力，会给你带来前所未有的甜蜜和欢乐。双鱼座男人的爱情像一张柔软的床，让你很容易养成赖床的坏习惯。就好象很多爱情小说中的人物一样，每天什么事都不做，只要谈恋爱就能过日子一样。但是，现实生活中，爱情毕竟不是全部，如果你运气好碰上了一条深谙水性的鱼，他懂得掌握每一次机会，发挥自己的才华及想象力，那你就安心享受他带给你的财富和名望吧！若是你遇上的是条弄不清潮汐搁浅在沙滩上的鱼，快点斩断情丝吧！否则你这辈子除了陪他作梦之外，就得面对一切现实生活的压力了！双鱼座的男人是很浪漫的幻想家，很多双鱼座的男人也真的在梦想中度过了一生的。因为他的梦想实在跟现实离得太远了，他大部份的时间都花在如何把他的梦做的更完美一点，而不是如何实际的一步一步让梦想实现，许多的机会就这样从他眼前溜走，注定一辈子搁浅在沙滩上。他或许仍然觉得过得不错，因为他心中始终有梦。但是如果你要跟他相守一生，那就恐怕有一点凄惨了。不要责备他没有责任感，他的浪漫不正是令你心仪的原因吗？只不过你没料到他会“浪漫”到如此地步罢了。

温柔善良的双鱼座

是的，双鱼的确是温柔的。因为双鱼总能敏感的体会到对方的细微变化，时刻了解到对方心意的转变，表现在行动上，就是能尽快的知道，什么时候应该为女孩披上自己的外衣，什么时候应该停下手里的活，转过身去和女友好好的说话。

双鱼座男人难免都有颓废的倾向，经常需要别人的肯定和赞美，你的鼓励对他来说是很重要的，用冷酷实际的言语打碎他的梦，将是失去他最快的方式。

温暖又有爱心的双鱼座男子，将是朋友们倾吐心事的好对象：其中当然也不乏是异性朋友。收敛一下你的醋劲，加入他们的行列，才是避免外遇的好方法。他经常需要独处的时间，以平衡他容易受到外界影响的心情，请不要在他心情低落的时侯，对他喋喋不休，抱怨个不停，这很可能会让他从你面前消失好一阵子，甚至再也不出现了。

双鱼座男人的温柔本性，会让他收集到很多的秘密，事实上他敏感而机警的心灵，让他本能的能看穿别人的心，想要欺骗他可不是件容易的事情。但是他如果想要唬你可就轻而易举啦！以他的想象力，编故事实在太简单了。但是多数的双鱼座男人都很善良，少有恶意的欺骗。

不过说些无伤不雅的小谎倒是可能的。似乎隐藏一些事实他会比较有安全感！不必太小题大作！你就睁一只眼、闭一只眼算了。鱼儿再灵活总也游不出海的怀抱，如果你有着海一般的胸怀，你就永远会是他梦境中的爱丽丝，有几个女孩能像你那么幸运，一辈子都能享受浪漫的爱情呢？

浪漫的双鱼座　　

我给你个肯定的答案，双鱼绝对浪漫，他脑子里面的浪漫点子不仅包含了所有好莱坞大片的经典场景，还有更多他自己的原创镜头，他时不时的都在幻想浪漫的场面，一个鱼可能在他18的时候就开始想他30岁结婚的布置。

那么为什么现实中是两样呢？因为2点，自卑和善良。前一点很好理解，大部分的浪漫需要自信。很多时候，不是鱼不想浪漫，而是不好意思和没胆子那么做，你能理解是吧，呵呵。那么自信的鱼呢？为什么他也不浪漫？因为他没有遇到合适的人，因为他善良。

双鱼的爱情大部分是有些被动的。鱼总是轻易的喜欢上一个女孩子（注意，我用的单词是喜欢），然后开始和这个女孩开始交往，然后十有八九，会发现这个女孩不是能给自己完美的爱的女孩（这是肯定的，遇到最合适自己的人哪有那么容易），鱼很现实的知道，他和这个女孩不可能有将来的，2个人能拥有只能是一段回忆。那么对鱼来说，绝大部分的情话都会说不出口，因为鱼自己知道这些话都是骗人的，很多浪漫的举动做不出来，因为鱼不敢让女孩陷的太深，怕分手的那一天女孩太伤心。很多人说处女，金牛的人想的多，其实鱼想的并不比他们少，只不过犹犹豫豫又舍不得的鱼，就算明了的知道和女孩没有将来，也不会点破，只会静静的维持，享受拥有的每一天。但是这样的情况下，鱼的善良就让鱼忍住了很多浪漫的情话和行动。

我这么说是不是显的鱼很高尚？呵呵，没有什么真正高尚的人。鱼能如此的为女孩着想，是因为这么做能让鱼觉得自己很伟大，有一种悲剧式的美感，鱼愿意让自己沉浸在这种自我的意淫中。当然，这样至少比不顾别人的死活，只图自己开心要好的多是不是？所以还是应该为鱼们鼓鼓掌的。

　　所以，如果有一天，你看到一条浪漫无比的鱼，不要怀疑，他已经认定你们有个美好的未来，他已经知道他不会给你太多的伤心了，那你还犹豫什么？上去拥抱你的幸福吧。

公平的双鱼座

公平对于双鱼来说，是个很重要的单词。双鱼没有普遍意义上的价值观，是非观，你不能用这件事这样做是对的，那样做是错的来说服一个双鱼座。永远记住，鱼的世界里很少有对错。

那么鱼又是怎么来处理他和别人（尤其是爱人的关系）呢？就是公平。如果鱼曾经有过十几，二十个女朋友，那么他就不会在意你以前有过多少个男朋友，如果鱼一个不小心跑出去玩了一夜情，那么你一夜情的时候，他也会选择无所谓。

好吧，就算你的鱼纯情的一塌糊涂，你是他（她）的第一次，他也可以原谅你的曾经花心，一时花心，可能会的花心，只要你能用足够的关心和真心的喜欢弥补。鱼大致兑换了下你的关心（兑换比例只有天知道了，呵呵），如果觉得双方大致公平的（相对于他对于你的感情付出），那么他就无所谓，就会原谅你。

所以和鱼相处是件很简单的事情，只要你能保证你给他的和他为你付出的差不多多，就可以了。至于伦理道德嘛...嗯，讲真的，鱼从来不是教条主义者。

反过来，如果你让鱼觉得你对他的关心不够多，对他的爱不够多（不够多是指没有他给你的多），那么鱼会在痛苦之后，也相应的减少对你的关心和爱，不要怀疑，这方面，鱼比谁都表现的现实和斤斤计较。

完美爱情的双鱼座

鱼在意的东西很少，所以很不幸，鱼对于他在意的东西就是完美主义者的态度。　　对于鱼来说，完美的情人不是忠贞不二的情人，不是事业爱情兼顾的情人，也不是外形完美的情人。鱼要求的是“完美的爱”。你可以不经常说我爱你，但是你说的时候，一定要是真心实意。你可以很少陪他逛街，但是你陪的时候，一定要是真的开开心心。你也可以对他说很少的情话，但是你要保证，你对别人说的情话更少，而且你对他说的是真心的话。对于鱼来说，欺骗和做作是最不可原谅的。很多人以为简简单单的对鱼说几句我爱你，固定性的发些短信问候鱼，经常为鱼买些好东西就能让鱼觉得被爱了。真不幸，大部分鱼都聪明过了头，一般都能轻松辨别那些举动是真心的，那些不过是手段（如果你曾经用这些手段征服过双鱼女生，也别得意，只不过是双鱼女生比男生更难以拒绝别人而已）。所以，请诚实一点对待鱼，爱他多少就给他多少，他也会给你同样多。这至少比他生你的气好的多，不是吗？

爱思考的双鱼座

双鱼座的最本质特点是什么？善良？懦弱？温柔？不是，我告诉你，是思考（在很多情况下，是过多的思考）。

是的，双鱼座的一切特性，都来自于他过多的思考，或许世上没有第二个星座比双鱼座更能洞察别人的心理，更能分析事情的本质。你可以称之为敏感，但是一旦这种敏感能够正确的使用，那么没有人能比双鱼座更快的学会人情事故，在这一方面，有一个双鱼座的伟人做的尤其出色，他的名字是周恩来。

因为思考的太多，所以双鱼座的人就算不是真正善良的，也至少是表面善良的。对于双鱼来说，善良与其说是本质，不如说是双鱼喜欢的一种生活方式，以善良的方式活着，是轻松而又受人尊敬的，一般的双鱼座很早就能洞察到这一点。

为爱而生的双鱼座

与其说双鱼是个为爱情而活的星座，不如说双鱼是个为感情而活的星座。对于双鱼来说，世界上最重要的东西是感情，一条精神上满足的鱼，可以没有其他东西，就已经是最幸福的人（当然，绝大多数情况下，没有其他东西，很难精神上满足）。任何感情对于双鱼来说都是重要的，爱情很重要，但不见得会比亲情更重要。对于鱼来说，感情是单纯的，是单独的。鱼可以原谅对方的一切，只要那个人是真心对他好的。你可以十恶不赦，可以吃喝嫖赌，可以之前是人尽可夫的妓女，可以是个卑鄙无耻的骗子，都可以原谅，只要鱼能确定你是真心的喜欢他，对他好。但是请注意一点，大部分的鱼都比你聪明，不要以为你的小伎俩可以骗到鱼，你是不是真心喜欢他，他比谁都清楚。

对于一个女孩子来说，双鱼男孩....嗯..... 看你的运气了，如果你遇到的鱼是个没有志气，不想做事，玩玩乐乐的鱼，而且他已经25岁左右了，那么好心的提醒你，还是尽早离开他吧。除非你是个富婆，或者你只是找个情人（没有人比双鱼更适合做情人了：安全快乐而无副作用）。否则，你会经历世间最凄凉的婚姻和生活，阿门................

那么如果你遇到的鱼是有事业心，能上进，肯做事的鱼，或者干脆就是事业有成的鱼，那么真的是恭喜你，你是千万少女中最幸运的一个，再挑剔的女人也无法对一个有上进心有事业的鱼有更多的要求了。你可以得到世界上一切的温柔和快乐，包括用钱买的到的和用钱买不到的，鱼很乐意把他的一切奉献给他爱的人，看到他爱的人开心，他会更开心。大部分的鱼的“一切”仅仅只有感情，而没有物质，但是我们现在讨论的是最优秀的那种鱼，那种能随时把名望和财富送给你的鱼，现在你知道你有多幸运了吧。

双鱼座的男人与“性”

　　双鱼座的男人在性方面是追求自己快乐，也希望让对方快乐的。双鱼座的男人有些纵欲，在性爱的表现上也是想象力十足，可能会想出各种新鲜的花样，来刺激彼此的乐趣，他是温柔浪漫的，冷漠的女孩会让他不满足，甚至给他挫折感。

双鱼座的爸爸

双鱼座的男人会是个讨好孩子欢心的爸爸，他鲜活的想象力足以满足小孩的幻想，他们会喜欢跟他一起疯，一起玩，一起说故事。他的温柔和体贴，会给他们很大的安全感，他的爱不会给孩子压迫感，他总会体谅他们的情绪和所犯的错。教孩子们守纪律，恐怕不是他内行的事，因为双鱼座的男人本身就没有什么纪律的欢念，关于这一点你就得多费心思了。

双鱼的致命缺点：懦弱

现实中的双鱼座确实给人太多的失望，懦弱，多疑，自卑，优柔寡断，没有主见.....一个双鱼座或许没有上面全部的特点，但至少会有一，二个。就算是伟大如周恩来，有时候难免有些优柔寡断和没有主见，当然，这种时候不多。造成双鱼座优柔寡断的原因很简单。

因为同样一个选择，在一个射手看来，只需要考虑2样东西，但是在双鱼看来，却需要考虑10样东西，因为他想的实在是太多了。简单的说一句话，双鱼都会想到它会给周围的人带来多少种不同的影响，它会让人对自己有怎么样的看法，会不会造成误解。（虽然很多时候，双鱼会冲动的把一些话脱口而出）至于多疑，这点和自卑联系的比较紧密。虽然双鱼座能轻易的了解对方的意图，看透事情的真相，但是却往往不能坚持住自己的观点，这种不能坚持大多数是因为双鱼座自己不愿接受这个事实，也有很多时候是因为双鱼对自己不够自信。关于前一点，比较突出的一个例子是，双鱼座的女孩不到男孩子直截了当的告诉她，他不爱她了，女孩就总是还抱有一线希望，虽然女孩心里明白的很。

懦弱呢？关于这点，和信仰联系在一起。你一定觉得很奇怪，懦弱和信仰又有什么关系呢？信仰是种很可怕的力量，他可以让一个人做出平时不敢做的事情，拥有不该拥有的勇气，牺牲不该牺牲的东西。而双鱼恰恰是没有一丁点信仰的，就算有，也不过是为了给生活加一点调味剂，或是给自己找一个避难所。对于双鱼来说，自己能过舒适，安稳的日子，比什么都重要。富贵如浮云，最想的开这点的就是双鱼座了。至于爱国什么的，酒饱饭足的双鱼可以慷慨激昂，也会不惜重金施于，但是只是建立在自己有好日子过的前提下。

接下来，可以解释下双鱼的懦弱了。只要能让自己和爱人平平安安，有什么不可以忍受的呢？什么尊严，什么气节，见鬼去吧。所以只要不把双鱼逼到绝境，你尽可以嘲弄双鱼的懦弱。每条鱼的忍受范围都不同，但一般都比正常人多那么一点点。但是如果你不小心让一条鱼觉得无路可走了，那么你真的要小心了。鱼可以践踏人间一切法律，无视所有道理，更不会考虑自己的尊严和人格。你务必要相信这一点，虽然这种时候很少，但那只不过是因为上帝不想让人们经常看到地狱的惨状。

结语：什么样是好的双鱼？

双鱼有很多缺点，但是大多数都可以原谅。除了2条，懒惰和犹豫。

而双鱼要成为一条好鱼，所需要的东西很简单，事业。其实不用去提醒鱼们其他的事情了，他们自己都能想明白。只需能保证鱼能稳步进行他们的事业就可以了。一旦鱼用心去赚钱了，那么他肯定能赚到钱。但是这一点很难，真的很难，如果有一天，你看到一条生龙活虎的鱼，千万不要放过，好好的捆住他，很有可能，他会带给你所有的梦想

My family new car - Myvi

2008-09-06T01:10:00.000-07:00

Finally, we have our brand new car - Myvi EZ.

JLD 9911 as a memory for our previous car JBC 9119 which is the last car that my father inhertited to us before his leaving....

After 10 years service of our last car...finally come the new car...The latest model for myvi...Got mp3 player inside...I love it....haha...It is auto gear olso...haha...(suitable for my lazy style)...

Yahoo!!!

Thankz mom for her hard work and savings...Nw three of us can drive it to go "makan angin"...haha...

May God bless us in using this car....

2008-08-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

As a boy, my father often played violin in the local symphony. This budding young talent continued improving into his high school years.

Then one day he decided to join his buddies in a harmless prank. As they raced through the school hallways and out the door, my dad hurried to follow them. The door slammed just as he reached it. His left hand smashed the glass of the door—severing the tendons to three fingers. All the doctors could do was tie the tendons in knots, rendering his fingers useless and taking the violin out of his life forever.

I wonder how Dad’s life might have been different had he not made that one small choice. “What-ifs” have dubious merit—we can always second-guess ourselves. But we cannot underestimate the impact of our choices. One choice can produce lifelong consequences, for good or bad.

Joshua’s counsel is a good place to start. “Choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve,” he told Israel. “But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord” (Josh. 24:15).

Serving God will not always be the easy choice. But it is a choice that brings the kind of consequence we can live with. — Bill Crowder

I am resolved to follow the Savior,
Faithful and true each day;
Heed what He sayeth, do what He willeth—
He is the living way. —Hartsough

What you will be tomorrow depends on the choices you make today.

2008-08-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

Fact Nite 2008 -" An Evening of Stars"

17th August, tonite is the fact nite for PPSM. This is an important event for all

the QA, QS and QM coursemates to be gather together for an annual dinner...

It is olso an important event to pick out our new King and Queen as the head of
fact nite committee next year...Here are the candidates for King and Queen...They will be judged by their performance during the nite...

and the winner is..............

farewell

2008-08-16T06:40:00.000-07:00

Today is my best friend departure day to US for a student exchange...He is boarding the plane form KLIA to Singapore...We plan to send him ard 6pm and at the same time celebrate his 21st birthday for him...

Unfortunately.i cun attend the farewell bidding...Is been a regret for me that unable to attend the event...

Sometime is hard to say goodbye to others...especially the one you truly treasure of...
Sometime need to struggle with the tears too...although you knw is not the end of the relationship between you and ur beloved...sometime i wish to avoid this kind of event...Perhaps i kind of emotional ppl... cun stand the separation moment....

Life is full of unpredictable...Chinese got this songs as saying,"失去才会懂得珍惜“。。。U feel appreciate when u lost something...

For me, I think i need to learn to let go...cuz life is not a bed of roses...I will face a lot of seperation in future...I shld learn to overcome the reluctant feeling and the sadness caused...

For my friend, although i cun give my blessing to you on the spot but hope that you understand me and i wish u learn a lot when u r abroad...Grab this golden opportunity to experience wut u have never experience b4 and brg back ur lessons back to benefit the ppl ard u...Then u will not waste this chance given...

Wish u all the best in US

May God bless you....

Convo

2008-08-16T00:46:00.000-07:00

Senior Convo...

wah is a waiting for moment for my seniors to come to the moment of stepping out from the academic field...congratulations to all of them...Wish them all the best in future!!!

As a final year student,this remind me to plan out my future from nw...
Times flies...and the competition i will confront in establishing my career right after my graduation future is getting higher and higher...

Wut i shld prepare myself to beat others...
Wut i have in myself that can convince the others...
How am i different from other competitors...
...
..

alot of question come to my mind thats seemed so far but is so ard the corner....

I shld work hard and play hard for not being regret i future!!

All the best to my fren and seniors!!!

My first Blogging

2008-08-16T00:15:00.000-07:00

I heard if blogging long time ago
and this is my 1st time writing my own blog...
haha...

Abit nervous....
Dun knw How to start too...

Well i start by introducing myself

I jz a ordinary boy from my very beloved small town named as Yong Peng, situated in the state of Johor in Malaysia...

I'm 21st years old...haha...finally mature...can try alot of thing that i never try b4...

I'm still a student now....In UKM...pursuing my degree in Actuarial Science in the path of realizing my dream of becoming an actuary in Malaysia...(Dun knw wuts is actuary? haha...go and google it!!)

I'm very amiable and sensitive guys...I am friendly to everyone ard me...mayb becuz of my humour and also my courage to perform anything that hardly done by ordinary ppl...(sometime i do think that i'm a clown among my fren...)haha...That's my very unique and outstanding character which motivate me to stand on the stage to perform my artistic talent in front of alot audience and judges...and luckily i got the rewards for my talent sumtime....For ur information, i'm quite confident in my vocal and dancing performance so far...Not the best but the is above good...haha(very confident huh)...

I'm sensitive!!Sensitive to the needs of ppl surrounding me...i concern abt thier feeling and also their reactions either towards me or towards thing surrounded...Sometime, i do also get the disadvantage from this character....Sumtime being too sensitive until i acting too emotionally...I'm easily fet affected by someone view and opinion on me...Thats seemed to put pressure on me until i think too low abt my self(low self esteem)...Sometime even b the pessismistic....Well, mayb is the problem of zodiac sign...(Pieces)...haha..jz kidding!!But the most important i am honest to everyone that knw..."this is who i am, and i appreciate who u are"...\

I'm a christian since young...I grow in church where i gain alot of life experience inside...I work with the elders when i was in my secondary schools...I make testimony in front of ppls... I dance...I sing...and I even teach...Thanks to God's mercy and grace...I got the gift from HIM to be able to serve HIM in my life..."Is a great thing to Praise the Lord..Is a great thing to Serve the Lord"..i believe everyone in this world got their role to play that God gives...I feel lucky to be under His guidance and love...May His Name be glorified....

Well

Is too many say abt jz myself...
I hope i can make new frens thru this blogger...

For those visitors...
enjoy my sharing here...

Cya soon!!!