today is 冬至。。。it symbolize an one-year-growth for a children in Chinese custom...
Normally we eat 汤圆，a small "flour" ball with the mixture of peanuts powder and sugar...some ball got 馅 inside...
A growth...times flying...21st year of mine quickly flown away...Is been a normal 21st year with a lot of separation with friends... some weddings at the end of year... some change in my buddy group ... and of course a lot of regrets inside
Today is my church music ministry AGM ... a new badge of the committees is selected... with a lot of surprises and also a lot of anticipations... i also one of the committee members... so far i haven known what post i will be in... i been a secretary before... a choir leader and last year i was a evangelism trip person-in-charge... it has been quite a long time i was honorly selected to serve in music ministry since the revival of this ministry... it been a meaningful memory in my life to work with the commitee to serve our Lord... the togetherness... the support... the joy... and all the thing we succeed in the previous year... i never been a cheerful and thoughtful person without the involvement in this commitee... from them i learnt a lot... thanks God!!!
It is not easy to be a leader in this commitee... cuz you need to take care of a lot of small group like Prasie and Worship team, Choir, Tambourine, and etc...So far we have three blessed ppl been in this position... and they have done a great job in each stage of their leading...
Today, thanks to to God grace i got the most numbers of election in choosing the 7 commitee members with 27 out of 29 tickets i get... is a joy and also a pressure to me...when we plan to choose the leader from these 7 members, although we haven count the ticket properly but i was told that i was the most number of ticket in electing the chairperson of this commitee...
Wahl！！！Qoah！！！
Is that an honor or is that a pressure... Deep in my heart i feel i wan to grab this...but i knew myself.. i am an lazy and impersistent person... i can be a tiger in the beginning and turn out be a snake at the end.... 2009 years is a twisted year for me becuz i have to undergo a two stage of life from student to a worker which means i will be graduating in May 2009...Can i afford this position or is jz a feeling or winning to get the position... U know why...cuz when i was told that there are different plan in choosing the chairperson which means that the 7 commitee member are not chosen to be... but with another from the 3 person which has taken the position before...
Well i sdmit a little disappointment... but nw what i foresee is that will i be a person consistent to the end when i was given a so important and highly position... i could say i am not... chinese saying, u dun have enough size of head then dun wear too high hat... i am sure i dun have the size although my head look big... well, is still an questionmark until now...i hope what comes to the end is all the God mercy and grace to use me as His servant... i hope if i get it i can persistent in it....
today is olso a regretness time for me...i did sumthing wrong to God... i need to confense in Christ...but i knew is not the 1st time... Dear God, i'm sorry... forgive me although i not enough will to overcome my temptation... i;m sorry... i hope my apology is not a cliche to You... i jz dun knw how to do... Teach me lord... Forgive me....
24 is the day of releasing result... Pray God for His blessing...
Thats all for today...
Thank you and goodnite....
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